We just forget to address the person who gives us the most, a person who motivates you. Hence this holiday season, just do it. I did it already! Merry Christmas! Have an amazing year!
Dearest Self,
I know this is a bit weird for you because we haven’t had a real conversation in a real long time and now I’m suddenly taking the high road of writing you a letter. You know, I always wanted to talk to you, always wanted to confront you but maybe, all the circumstances around made me really weak and scared to get in touch with you. It was easy to blindly spend time than face you. And whenever I found myself getting close to you, I had an unexplainable hesitation because I knew that you wouldn’t be approving of the way I was carrying my life then. I’m sorry for keeping you away from me but guess what, I am doing really good now! Be both have changed so much since the last time we spent time together.
You’ve always been showing me the truth but I’m sorry, I kept rejecting it. I wasn’t really ready to get out of my self-designed notions to fit my comfort zone and confront things up front! I’m sorry for having hurt you so many times, for having done stupid things even when you were screaming in there, trying to tell me what was right. Well, our journey together hasn’t been an absolutely merry one. It’s been quite a bumpy ride but we’ve had some really good times too.
I’m sorry for being mindless at times, for wanting to pull you down and confine you within the narrow boundaries of society, for tearing you apart. It wasn’t because you were at fault, it was solely because I wasn’t mature enough to handle things. But, we’ve grown together now, we’ve seen so much together and hence it’s very difficult for anyone around to break us apart anymore.
We’ve hugged our knees, buried our heads in them, cried in confusion, shame and also in disgust. We spent time alone in those dark rooms just unable to figure out what was going on. We’ve been on the shower floor just gazing at the door and worried about situations that surrounded us, slipped in blankets with teary eyes. You always knew what you wanted to do but I couldn’t support you because I didn’t want to face any questions, I didn’t want people to think that I was confused about what I was doing!
I haven’t been completely fair to you and I know it. I have been upset and disgusted at times when I thought of what I was doing to you, how badly I was shutting you up. But, you know, we haven’t been at crossroads all the time.
We’ve had such an amazing time together. We enjoy the nature, go out and hangout with eachother with absolutely no one else involved in our time. For everyone else, it might seem that I spend a lot of time by myself but little do they know that I am in the company of ever amazing you. Thanks for not giving up on me even after all the hardships, trying stuff we went through. Thanks for just keeping me alive.
Lately we went through times where I wanted to stop and run. I wanted to escape. My mind wasn’t working and I wished to make no decisions because all of it was failing but you kept going and dragged me along and I can’t thank you enough for that. I can’t imagine where I would have been and what I would have been as a person if you weren’t strong! At times I wanted to cry out loud, let all of the things out, but I held in all of it because I didn’t want you to break down looking at me. I held back because I love you. I might have been really late to say this, have been unable to say this to you before or show it through my actions, but I really love you!
At times I did things in the moment and later had an amazement as to how did that bloody confidence come into me! Thank you for that. Also thank you for choosing wisely the people I let in my life and teaching me that I have the ability of owning things that are external and only thing that matters is my inner self and peace.
You have changed me a lot. We both have changed a lot. You just brought me to a point where I gave up dependence on anything and liberated myself. You came along with me and instigated me to speak my mind fearlessly. Lately, I might have made a few decisions that didn’t fit your ethics but I promise you that if we keep walking together the way we are walking now, soon, we’ll be so one with eachother that our decisions will be collective and of the sort which fit your ethics of life.
I hope we don’t lose touch again. I really need you to help me be myself and do things in an amazing way. I could write to you all life but let’s get in real conversation once I’m done writing this. And keep loving me because that’s ultimately me loving myself! And don’t forget you’re an amazing person because you helped a person like me to keep going on. Don’t forget to love yourself because afterall, for me, there’s no better Santa than you. Happy Holidays!
Yours Truly Loving,
Your Best Friend
© 2018 Lifemerized (Andy). Rights reserved to the author.
This is amazingly beautiful stuff to read onnn Andy 💙
Glad to have you in my zone 🎀
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Thanks a lot Nirant! I’m glad you liked it
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Pleasure always 😉 🎀
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This is beautiful… I think even I should have a convo with myself..☺
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You surely should otherwise you’d miss talking to a person who knows you better than anyone else!
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You’re right!
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What a fantastic letter!! This has been a theme for me today. There are no real secrets, only calculated confusions. We have the power in us already to become, to choose our own path, to be empowered by ourselves, and live life to the fullest outside of the system. We just have to choose to do so and not partake in the bickering.
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Exactly! Simply introspecting and understanding yourself can take us a long way. Thanks for liking it!
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Happy New Year
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Happy new year guys!
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This is a wonderful post! Lots of food for thought here.
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Hehe. Thanks!
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Thank you for the follow, glad to return it!
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Welcome!
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This is really nice to know that people like you still have a lot to talk to yourself. We all should do.
Wish you a happy new year, Andy. 🙂
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Wish you the same Sumit! It’s very important for us writers to ourselves better before we put forward our thoughts. Have a great year ahead. 🙂
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Wow this was amazing
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Thanks!
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Nice work!!!
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Thanks 🙂
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The crossroads, huh? Nice work
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Yes! Many a times I do something that my inner self doesn’t want to do just because the external circumstances are a certain way. Well, thanks for the appreciation! ❤❤❤
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Buon anno.
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Buon anno nuovo amico! 😀😀😀
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😉
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Very Nice written
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Thanks! ❤
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Happy new year my new friend !!!!!!
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Happy new year friend! Have an amazing time writing! ❤❤❤
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This is amazing! And emotional! Well done 👍🏼
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Thank you! ❤
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My pleasure! ❤️
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Am truly taken by surprise by your letter… very well written and explained… U inspired me to think on the same lines and maybe I will write to myself one day… near future…
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Sure. You should. And don’t forget to share it on your blog for us to read! Thanks for reading! ❤❤❤
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I will blog it for sure… but will take time
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Nice work Andy… I think I may need that chat 🙂
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You should have that chat ❤ Thanks for the read!
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Likely one of the best blog posts I have read. Truly beautiful. I think we all need to take a moment and write a letter to ourselves. There is so much we go through in life and only one person with us for the entire ride.. important to trust them to lead us to our best life. I find that I too like my company, she and I have and continue to grow to our happy place.. with the realization that our happy place doesn’t always have to meet societal expectations of happiness.. takes all forms, as do all of us. Again thank you sharing for the thought provoking, beautiful letter to yourself. All of the best in the New Year!
Note you followed my business blog, thank you! I think likely you would prefer my personal blog (more journey a of self) http://www.fiftyfatandfabulous.com
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I certainly would go and look upto your personal blog and follow it. I’m so very glad that you liked it. Yes, we should trust ourselves more than anyone else because it’s just one person, you, in the driver seat. All the best to you too for the New Year! You too should write a letter to yourself. We’d love to read if you post it on your blog. Have an amazing day! ❤❤❤
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Our minds are insecure bullies that use our bodies as tools so being able to become one with self is so important. Thanks
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Yes! Have a good day ❤
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What an excellent concept! Thank you for following my blog.
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Thanks❤ Well you should get your blog working again!
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Insightful, honest, self-aware. Some great thoughts, Andy. I appreciate the follow on my blog–and I’ll return the favor. I’m interested in how you process life.
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Hey! Thanks for the follow and appreciation! Interested to read your work too! 😊❤❤❤😊
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What a touching letter to yourself. I think it might do me a bit of good if I were to write one as well. Thanks for the follow Andy, and I hope you have a great new year!
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Thanks ❤ You should write one too and if you’d like to share, blog it too
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Beautifully written. Touched a cord in me. Thank you so much for sharing this gem. Maybe I should write a letter to myself too :)Do find time and read my post on self love here https://sunniesmybunnies.wordpress.com/2018/06/13/peace-with-yourself-loving-yourself/
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Sure ❤
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